Monday, July 28, 2008

You got to know when to hold 'em.

I'm not one for putting all my eggs in one basket. I'm a third generator fence straddler. Can't make decisions to save my life. Want someone else to decide everything from where we're going to have dinner to how those jeans look on my ass.

I mean, I don't mince words. Don't get me wrong. If you're a douche bag, I'll very politely tell you so. I mean, I am Southern after all. I'm not going to be a bitch about it, but bless your heart, you're going to know how I feel about you.

But recently? I put all my eggs in one basket with someone. I lay it all on the line. I said, "This is the problem. This is the solution. Your move."

I haven't heard anything since then.

And really, I'm not sure how I feel about that. I'm puzzled by this, because actually? Why should I care?

But actually, I've realized, I do care.

Which is precisely why it sucks. No matter how this goes, someone is going to lose. I don't mind losing, necessarily. I'm a big girl. I can take it.


I just didn't want to lose this time around.

13 comments:

Sleeping Mommy said...

I hate it when that happens, that's probably why I very rarely lay it all on the line. I'm just not a risk taker in relationships. Not very often anyway.

I'm sorry what it is didn't work out for you.

Soliloquy said...

Big girls don't have time to waste playing games.

GOOD FOR YOU.

Did you read this post of mine last week? Sounds similar...

http://www.shejusthadtosayit.com/2008/07/22/an-allegory/

Daphne said...

I'm a big scaredy cat when it comes to telling others something other than good things, so Kudos to you for speaking up. At least you didn't sit back and let things happen!

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Which is why I can never put all my eggs into one basket. The results, for me, have always sucked.

"Bless your heart" - I love that one! :)

Jenski said...

It is HARD to lay it out like that, so good for you. Waiting around for someone to say yes or no so you can finally move on in some way is also far from easy.

giants fan said...

in the south you can say whatever you want about someone, so long as the heart is sufficiently blessed! :)

I have a very hard time laying it all on the line.

I'm not good like that!

Kiki said...

The waiting and not knowing the answer is really the hardest part. I am totally with you on the fence thing. I am so like that.

Denise said...

Losing sucks ass no matter how you slice it. Sorry!

Mean Stepmom said...

This is the very reason I don't have more friends. But that's another blog...

Sarcasta-Mom said...

At least you had the guts to put it out there. If it turns out badly, either way, it's their loss.

Kimberly said...

Sounds pretty painful, but possibly necessary.

Rachel said...

I am going to be doing the same thing very soon. I guess time will tell if we both lose.

kristi said...

Yep, I get it. Check out my recent post at:
www.crazyintx-kristi.blogspot.com.