I know this may be hard to believe but sometimes? I forget I'm fat.
I wake up in the morning and my knees hurt. Because I forget I'm fat and I run.
I forget that I'm fat and I turn the elliptical up a level.
I forget that I'm fat and I ride the bike for an hour.
I don't run and hide from anything because I feel like I'm not okay. I mean, I don't necessarily think I'm okay, at all, but it's more about my utter craziness than my weight.
Other people are sometimes fond of reminding me. But I? Sometimes forget.
Sometimes I think about it all the time. Sometimes it consumes me. Sometimes all I can think about is what I eat and what I don't eat and what I will allow myself to eat.
But sometimes? When I'm dancing around the room with my husband and I feel light as air?
I just forget.