Sunday, March 22, 2009

Learning as I go.

As much as I absolutely hate this growing up crap, I have to admit that I've had a lot of moments of absolute clarity lately.

It's nice, in some ways. In some ways it sucks butt, mind you. But I'm also learning a lot and changing and figuring a lot of things out. Important things like:

Always keep yourself busy so you'll stay out of everyone else's business


Because, I've realized, I don't have time to worry about other's people's crap. I have enough of my own crap to deal with.

Also?

It doesn't matter if I behave like an assfaced whore, there are always people who love me.

Really? I shouldn't behave like an assfaced whore. But everyone has a moment sometimes so I'm giving myself a pass. I can't be good all the time. I just can't.

Finally?

Life is short.

I know. Profound, right?

Yesterday I became the mother of eleven-year old twins. And while I have moments at work and during exercise in which I feel as though time has completely stopped, in all reality the last eleven years of my life have absolutely flown by. In a few years they'll be out on their own, God willing, and I'll have to look back on my life as their mother, and see how I've done. And I don't want to screw them up.


So I'm learning. I'm trying.

5 comments:

Angie said...

And I hate to break it to you. . . the older they get, the faster it goes. Enjoy each minute -- they are priceless, and you have double blessings with the two of them! :)

jill said...

I've learned recently that if you keep your blinds open, you see a lot more interesting (and annoying) stuff.

mythoughtsonthat said...

From what I read, I really can't imagine you screwing them up. Peace.

I am Trish Marie said...

I hope they had a good birthday!

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

I know what you mean, Chick. I completely know what you mean.