As you all know because I've documented it here for the past few years, I'm pretty much an asshole.
I don't necessarily mean to be. But I am.
Because right now? I'm not happy.
In fact? I'm downright pissed off.
I'm pissed off that people don't care about me. I'm pissed off that I care that people don't care about me. I'm pissed off at my body and the utter unfairness that comes with eating SADNESS PIZZA instead of real pizza and not seeing the effects I wanted. I'm pissed off that I'm a freak and don't get to be normal when everyone else gets to be normal. I'm pissed off about my 3.5 hour commute every day and I'm even more pissed off that I can't sell my house and just move closer to work.
I'm pissed off at myself for letting all of this bug me.
And I'm really pissed off at that guy with Florida tags who was in front of me going six miles below the speed limit. And when he STOPPED at the merge sign instead of MERGING? I really wanted to stick my head out the window and shriek, "OH MY GOOD GOD YOU FREAK, GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY OR I WILL COME UP THERE AND STAB YOU IN THE THROAT!"
I didn't. I wanted to, but I didn't.
I'm having a bad day.
It's probably hormones. Which also pisses me off because it's so unfair that I have to deal with this shit and don't even get a baby out of the deal.
Feel free to ignore this. I just need a minute.