Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I'm getting there.

So I guess, according to Jesus and a preacher whose name is Jason (seriously, that's his name and like fifteen people I met on Sunday were named Jason as well), I'm supposed to be forgiving people.

And I really, really, REALLY like that idea. Because if I don't forgive people how am I supposed to go on with my bad self?

But, guess what? Forgiving people is hard. I mean, really, really hard. And I gave birth to two babies on the same day and all by myself, so I totally understand what hard means.

So I sent a card to someone who probably doesn't give two craps about having my forgiveness, but really needs my forgiveness anyway.

We'll see what happens.

31 comments:

judy in ky said...

Good for you! The fact that you were able to say these things says a lot about you. Very brave.

Patience said...

WoW! If she doesn't come around after that, her heart is made of cold stone!

Sabrina said...

It's really hard to forgive someone for something they've done to you, but when did that, did you feel that a weight had been lifted off your shoulders? It's part of the healing process...you go woman!

Twisted Cinderella said...

That is a really awesome thing too do! Good for you!

Rottie_mom said...

Good for you. Def a great card. Ball is then in her court!

Jana said...

WOW! That's awesome! I'm proud of you! And even if she doesn't respond, you will know that you did the right thing and tried.

Karen - Mommy to four sweeties said...

Wow. I couldn't/ wouldn't have.
You really are a good person.

herewegokids said...

Yaay Chick! Being gracious and appreciative never killed anyone yet (at least not that what we know of) and that's what you just did! And if it turns around and bites you in the butt it's still the right thing.

Angie said...

Holy crap, I am proud of you!

giants fan said...

that had to be really hard-- I'm very proud of you!

Captain Steve said...

Nicest person ever award goes to you, dude. Good on you.

Dawn~a~Bon said...

*bows down*

I am srsly impressed.

EE said...

Impressive! I don't know if I could have done that.... but , I do know that you have inspired me.

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Hey. That was the perfect thing to say. And sometimes, it's more about forgiving yourself and how you have dealt with the situation in the past. Good job.

Anonymous said...

Can't rush forgiveness... it's like grief in that it's a process, and at times there is backtracking, going back through emotions that you thought you were past. Sometimes we're stuck for a while in one spot, but that doesn't mean there isn't progress overall. At some point, you will know that she does not matter. She's as irrelvant as background noise. I know how crazy that sounds, but someday she'll act like a jerk again and you honestly won't work up any real emotion over it except maybe passing disgust. Sending hugs, V

Soliloquy said...

YOU? Are not the same person I started reading a few months ago.

God is at work in your life. I can see it! Let Him have His way.... it's so much better than ours....

I'm proud of you! (And encouraged to be better myself.)

Thanks for your transparency and for letting us come alongside your journey. You are going to have GREAT things to testify to, girl.

Jan said...

SUCH the right thing to do!

Suzy said...

I hate forgiveness because it's so BLOODY HARD.

Wenderina said...

I love that you are finding a way to open up and stay true to yourself at the same time. Never bury your own personality or be false when dealing with others. People value honesty and you have the ability to deliver that.

SJ said...

I'm proud of you Chick! So, so very proud of you!

Kellie said...

That? Is wonderful. I'm so proud of you :)

Kim said...

Good for you. Forgiveness, much like love, is not a feeling. It is an ongoing, conscious, choice to let go of the right to punish someone for the wrongs they have committed against you.

I'm not necessarily a big Oprah fan, but I do appreciate what she once said about forgiveness. "Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past will ever be different." (not verbatim)

Emma in Canada said...

Good for you Chick! I hope she takes it for what it is and sees what a great person you are.

Julie said...

at least you tried regardless of the outcome.

Rachel said...

That's awesome, Chick. I hope that gives you some closure.

And, maybe you've just opened the door.

I am Trish Marie said...

You are a hell of a lot nicer than me. But? I think that is a good thing!

mean stepmom said...

good job, chick :)

Bethany said...

You're a good woman, Chick.

Stephanie said...

That rocks. Seriously. I don't know how she'll take it either, but I'm really glad you did it.

Alpha Dude 1.5 said...

You are an amazing example to your children and to everyone who knows you.

Bless you, Chick!

CageQueen said...

Foregiveness, quite often, is more beenficial for the one doing the forgiving than it is for the one receiving the foregiveness. Whether she even accepts it, your heart will be lighter knowing it was capable.