Friday, September 25, 2009

Even if it takes forever to mend this heart, mend this heart of yours and this heart of mine.

I'm pretty sure.

Not 100% just yet.

But pretty sure that this blog is going away soon.

Not me. But this blog. I've already secured a new domain name.

It's not the same. This used to be my sanctuary. Now, it's just another reminder of all the ways I've failed as a human being. For I? Am not the same either.

For what it was, I'm glad for it. I'll probably (maybe?) keep the archives on the new blog. I might even regret this decision and just say the Hell with it and forget it.

But I think it's time. It's time for a change.

I can't stay stagnant. I can't stay the same. Things have changed and there is no use pretending they haven't.

I'll decide soon. I think I already have.

So. Be ready.


(And no, sweet peeps, I don't want to talk about it. But I would appreciate good thoughts and prayers...even if I don't deserve them)

36 comments:

bringingbackrad said...

For the love of god, will I be able to find you ?!? I just discovered this blog a few weeks ago and it's awesome !! You are HILARIOUS.

And from what I can tell,you are not a FAILURE at the single most important thing you can do with your life - I am speaking of course of the Boy and the Girl. Well done there, woman.

Please don't completely disappear. You're too much fun.

Captain Steve said...

You had best post a link or email your stalkers that don't comment all that much because of general laziness and a lack of clever things to say, because I will be greatly saddened if you go away entirely.

velocibadgergirl said...

**HUGS**

(And I better get a link)

(Or you can do what I did and just be a spaz with two blogs, one for stuff everybody can see, and one that's secret-ish)

Lil Mouse said...

perhaps have loyal followers email you and get the new link and deny those that you seem to have trouble with or don't realize

Lil Mouse said...

recognize, sorry.

Anonymous said...

I wish the best for you no matter your decision. I have been reading your blog for a while, but I'm a loser and don't have an account, so I have to post anonymously. Anyway, I love reading what you have to say, and congrats on the success you are having.
Stephanie D
Indiana

Tara said...

You better give us a link to the new place. This is my first morning read with my coffee and well without this blog, I don't know that the mornings would be hella funny like they are now. So please send us the new link. And no you aren't a failure!

Karen said...

I totally understand the need to turn a new leaf, so to speak, but please let us know where you will be!! As a daily reader, I will be very disappointed if you just disappear.

And, fwiw, I don't think you are a failure at all. In fact, if you are looking for some success, how about those new pants that are already loose? Or how awesome Boy and Girl Child are turning out. Or what a beautiful family you have after such a rough start with the ex.

Hang in there. You are making a difference even if you can't see it right now.

Blue Momma said...

{{{{{BIG hugs}}}}}}

*~* Jenni *~* said...

I just found your blog recently, so I hope you don't go away completely!

I had my prior blog for almost 3 years, until I finally got to the point where I felt like it was suffocating me. I don't know why, I just couldn't think of one single thing to write about anymore. I took a 6 month break from blogging, and I decided I really did miss it, so I got a new domain, new template, imported a very small number of my old posts, and the rest went the way of the wind.

Hang in there. Do what's right for YOU. I just hope that means a new blog!

Kathy said...

I think we all understand the need for you to make a change. And, from what I have seen in my few months of reading, while you may be a work in progess you are hardly a failure.

Best of luck whatever you decision. I hope I will be able to find your new blog.

Stephanette said...

You have both my good thoughts and prayers...I have enjoyed reading you for years.

I hope to see your new blog if this is the direction you need to go.

No matter what - you have my support.

Good luck with your decision.

Boriqua said...

First, you are NOT a failure in any way, shape, or form. Second, I'll miss this blog and hope you'll share the new domain. I really enjoy -- and relate to -- your writing. Best of luck to you! :)

Chelle said...

Oh Stephanie, know you're always in my thoughts & I wish you only the best. I do hope that you'll let us know where to find you if you do make the move, and that things will be ok with you. Take care...

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

I'm sorry I haven't been around lately and I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. I'm sending you much love and you better e-mail me your new blog address.

Much, much, much love.

Heather said...

I love you too. I hope that we will still be able to share your journey with you and YES you do deserve our prayers and well wishes.

Mean Stepmom said...

Leave me a forwarding address. :)

kristi said...

Please e mail me the new link. I understand!!
HUGS

Wenderina said...

You go Steph. This blog is a record of your growth, your journey to where you are now...and from what I can tell it is so far from where you started. Change (although it scares me shitless most of the time) is the healthiest thing. Don't let old stuff weigh you down. Go for it...hope you'll take us along for the next chapter in your book.

Anne-Kathrine said...

First of like others have said YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE!!!!!! You 2 beautiful kids and loosing weight like crazy, writing books (I ordered your book earlier this week would love to get it signed if you are ok with that)

I've loved reading your blog for a long time and hope to be able to continue in your new place.

Candle lit and prayers on the way, as well as hugs!

sheri said...

pppppllllleeeeaaaaaassssseeeee dont leave us forever! Nothing but love and good thoughts to you!

M said...

I love you. All the aspects of you. And you know you DO deserve the thoughts and prayers and much more. Love you friend. xoxo

Jenski said...

Change can be good and it sounds like this will be a good change. Down with stagnant and yay for newer and better!

Kimberly said...

I wish you liked you as much as we all do. Hope the change is freeing and hope inspiring for you.

Danielle said...

Stephanie - I've never once read one of your posts and thought "This chick is such a failure." Never. Best of Luck in whatever happens next!

Brandy said...

I'm delurking to make my first comment ever on your blog. I've been reading here a while, but am normally to shy to comment. I just want to say that you are not a failure. You are a bright, funny, talented, lovely woman. Please know that as a reader of your blog, I appreciate your ability/creativity in putting it all out there. I hope you fin peace and happiness in whatever you decide to do. Blessings.

Dawn~a~Bon said...

I'll be over here rooting for you, babe.

Jan said...

Will you tell us where you are?

Faith....Hope....Love....Peace.

Dr. Jones said...

Best of luck in whatever you choose.

Kelly said...

Please don't leave completely. My first comment on a blog ever, but you make my day. Happy, Sad, whatever, you make me know I'm not the only one. And I loved your book!

Anonymous said...

I'm also delurking, to use Brandy's word. I've been reading for a couple of months now and would hate to see you disappear completely. You're like a little daily dose of that best friend who's not afraid to tell it like it is. But, I do understand the need for a change, so we'll think good thoughts & hope for the best.

Peace & love,
Heather P.
North Carolina

Anonymous said...

I read you everyday and I love your blog! I seldom comment,I should make more effort to let you know how much I appreciate your writing. You touch something in me with your writing.

I don't view you as a loser, NOT. AT. ALL

. I hope I can still read your new site if you make a change. I'm asking Pwease with sugar on it!! ;-)

~ PattiLynn

Bethany said...

Do what you have to do. I love you, Chick and think you are a wonderful person.

Karen - Mommy to four sweeties said...

Don't leave us. Take us with you! Please leave us a link to your new site.

In all seriousness though. My prayers are with you. Hope it gets better for you soon.

Karen

His Girl said...

I hope everything is okay. I have been reading you daily (you are on the top of my ever-expanding list) and you may remember me emailing you to write a memoir! write a memoir! about a year ago.
I started my stupid little blog so I could express my love to my new boyfriend and not have to actually tell him. Of course, now we tell each other all the time so I figure I'll send him a link on our wedding day ha

take care and good luck and I am so sorry you feel like a failure...
because reading here it sure seems like you are a winner to me!

ps I hope everything is okay with you and Jason....

Lisa

SJ said...

Well this just breaks my heart! But it's your blog, and you have to do what's best for you and all that jazz. I understand.

You have my best wishes regardless of what you do, but I hope we'd still keep in touch.

Hugs to you!