Friday, September 05, 2008


Oh. My. Gravy.

I feel? Like I fail at life.

This week has kicked the fattest part of my ass and won't stop kicking.

I'm going to be okay. I know this. I know this is temporary. I know that things will get better. Things have been worse than this and they've gotten better.

I've been here before. The anxiety. The panic attacks. The three hours of sleep every night. I've been there and done that.

I know I don't really fail at life. I know I actually pretty much kick ass.

But right now I feel like I fail.

I hate it.


Anonymous said...

you are right. It will get better. Things have to.

I will remember you in my prayers tonight.

By the way, I haven't been blessed with kids yet, but I hope that when I am, I can rock at motherhood like you do!

Anonymous said...

Delurking to say, have you prayed for: patience, or an increase in your spiritual insight, or any number of character improvements lately? B/c it seems to me when I do that is when it tends to really hit the fan! :) Remember: growth through adversity! Lurv you and regularly reap the benefits of your God-given talents Congrats on the awesome weight loss!
P.S. I'm pretty sure my kids wish you were their mom....

Dawn~a~Bon said...

Aww hon. **HUG**

I'm sorry I disappeared on our email conversation earlier. Work blew up in my face and I had multiple impatient engineers standing in my cubicle all day. I will pray for you to get some good, good sleep this weekend because I know you're exhausted.

And if all else fails, I'll come yank on her stupid braid.


Suzy said...

Someone else who sleeps 3 hours a night, I dont feel so alone! It's so annoying and such a brain drain, isnt it? Lately I've taken to a host of solutions:
1. 2 tabs calcium/magnesium
2. my over the counter sleeping pills
3. spraying lavender on my pillow
4. a 'deep sleep' CD

Sometimes it works.

Anonymous said...

Make a list of the blessings in your life. Then you'll see how little you have failed. Hope you feel better soon.

Angie said...

Focusing on the positive is good -- but sometimes it's very difficult when you feel defeated.

I'm praying for you, my friend!

Frannie said...

thinking of you... I know it is so hard to feel like that!

Unknown said...

I hear ya!

Stephanie said...

You? Absolutely do kick ass. All the time. Chin up, sista.

Tricia said...

I hate moments like these. I wish I knew what to say to help. Except maybe, that you definitely do not fail at life. This much I know.

Kimberly Vanderhorst said...

I hate days like that. I hate that even though I'm pretty darn fabulous and I've got a lot going for me, there are these days when I just want to curl up in the fetal position and quit all the crap. Hope this little dip in life's roller coaster is a short one, hun. You deserve to soar.

Wenderina said...

My cure is a double dose of benedryl and a good night's sleep. If you don't get that REM the stress and anxiety just ramps right up. Of couse I don't really endorse going against the directions on any medication no lawsuits please.