Sunday, August 09, 2009

Things which are disappointing.

-School is starting again. NEXT WEEK. It's still like 200 degrees outside and school is starting.

-I always loved that song Rebirth of Slick and now it's part of a Tide commercial. Sadness.

-I got two uglyish comments yesterday and sadly? I knew both of them. I mean, yeah, they didn't bother to leave their names but I do have a sitemeter and I do know who they were. I thought they were my friends, but I guess not. Not nice.

-Remember how I said I was loving my new book? Yeah, not so much these days. I started thinking about the fact that people will actually READ this and know how bad things were for me there for a while and it makes the pit of my stomach feel really cold.

-To that end, things? Are not the best at home currently. Not the worst, either, but certainly not the best. Part of it is me and part of it is him and I hope the both of us get it figured out soon. Because it's rather unfun and not helping me with all the other issues I'm having in this world.

-Speaking of which, do you really think it's fun for me to have my life be commerce? Really? Do you really, honestly think that I wake up in the morning and think, "What would be the best way to annoy my blog readers so I can have enough money to pay my bills today?" That's the reason I freelance and that's the reason I have "commercials" on my blog (and yeah, the whole reason I started a seperate review blog is because I didn't want to junk up my main site...but thanks for being mean anyway), not because I think it's just super-fun to work and attempt to be perky about it constantly. In case I haven't mentioned a few thousand times before, my husband made $27000 less last year than he did the year prior. Twenty. Seven. Thousand. That's a huge number. Huge. And I have to do what I can do to make up that difference. I don't appreciate being judged for it.

-I'm still not Elle Woods. And I really, really want to be.

-I still. can't. sleep.



It's hard enough to put oneself and one's thoughts "out there" to be judged bey everyone and their sister.

And then, it really hurts for people to be mean.

Especially if one is sensitive and overemotional.

Ask me how I know.

Keep your chin up, everything will be okay.

AndreAnna said...

People are dick towels.

You don't need to justify your life to anyone.

You rock.

The End.

Anonymous said...

Wow. People were mean about your new site? Silly me! I just thought, "Cool! I can't even keep one site going and she writes all these places? She is great!"

Yes. That's what I thought.


Carolyn said...

Those nasty commenters need to go suck a bag of dicks. Where have I heard that before?...... Besides, they're just jealous.

Please don't censor yourself with your book. Bad times or good times, you have a way of connecting with people that is unique and wonderful. We need more of it in this world.

Anonymous said...

Delurking to say that mean people can suck it. Sorry you have to deal with that. :-( Enjoy your blog.

Allie said...

I hate nasty comments, I don't see how it's any of their business what you do in your free time or to make extra money. Haters are stupid!

M said...

Um...I like school starting again. Maybe that's because my big peep is SO out of sorts w/o his school and I cannot wait to have him feel better.

Your "friends" can suck my ass. Fuck them.

And your new book? Is such an amazing part of who you are and shows how REMARKABLE you are. yeah. You had plenty of shitsville. But you also? Made it through to be this woman that you wouldn't be otherwise. One *I* admire tremendously. Also? It's writing. You can omit shit if it's too hard. REALLY.

I understand at home. You know it. <3

I can't sleep either. So come over and we'll knit. I had a great dream about crocheting and I'm suddenly SO sad I can't do it.

Lov eyou

CPA Mom said...

As I sit here at work on a Sunday, listening to the saddest songs I know on my iPod and take this mini break to check in with you, I'm feeling all this pain. If it helps, I'm listening. And I care.

Unknown said...

I haven't said anything in awhile. So, today my thought is you rock. The End. To bad some people don't realize it. Their loss. The Real End.

Twisted Cinderella said...

Sorry you had mean comments. You don't deserve that. ((hugs))

la aventurista said...

People are really judgemental and mean. Don't Dr. Seuss says "Those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter." Very true words! Easier said than done, I know, but hopefully a little bit of encouragement!

PaintedPromise said...

what Carolyn said... you have touched me deep and i think a ton of other people too... i think you are amazing.

as for income, dang, i know how you feel... husband layed off in March... youngest graduated in May so no more child support... my hours cut 20% in July which means my pay cut 20%... "suddenly" over the last few months we are living on half what we were making before... except we are NOT living on it, we are barely scraping by, and if we don't sell something big soon i don't know how we are going to survive :( this economy sucks!!!!!

Kimberly said...

Rome wasn't built in a day...just breath.

Moxie said...

You know what I don't get? I hear all of this buzz about how people think that bloggers that advertise or do reviews somehow sold out. And I honestly -- HONESTLY -- do not understand what the problem is. Sure, if you're reviewing crap all the time and no substance then what's the point? But if you're writing a blog and review something you might actually find useful for readers, what's the problem? I just don't get it.

As for the home front business, I don't know what's going on but I do know that everyone goes through those time periods. Everyone. I've been married eight years and we had about two and a half to three years of it. How we made it through I do not know. But we did. And now on a day when things feel good and right, I do remember those really dark, bad, awful, horrible times within those handful of years and feel SO grateful for what I have now.

We go through it for a reason. Just remember that. And that you'll get through it. You've been through worse.

much more than a mom said...

Yuck. Mean people suck. You, however, totally rock and you need to remember that and screw all of them. (Well, not really. That would be way worse for your marriage than whatever's going on now. I'm pretty sure of that.)

Dawn~a~Bon said...

((HUGS)) Hey, personally I enjoyed that last review - my washer IS smelly and I need to de-funk it! I'm sorry you got ugly comments - that sucks.

I hope things improve at home. Those bumps in the road can be rough - maybe things will improve for both of us in that regard soon!

By the way my friend said she really enjoyed your book!

Anonymous said...

celebrate your success and screw the rest :)

Carey said...

I second the "You Rock!" and "Screw them!" comments above.

I've been having a hard time sleeping lately too (stupid start of school/family stress), but I went out yesterday and bought some cheapo blackout curtains ($13/panel) and slept for EIGHT hours last night. This is a big deal - usually it takes Tylenol PM, and then I'm still up three times in the night and top out at about five hours of sleep. Last night? No meds, no wake-ups. Just sleep. I can't recommend them enough.

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear things are rough at home. Hope everything settles down soon.

If they don't like the other blog, simple they don't need to read it. No need to leave nasty comments.

Well since Im up with my sick dog anyway we should just get together lol.


Kimberly Vanderhorst said...

So sorry some narrowminded peeps were giving you a hard time. Like you need that, life is ALREADY hard. Oi. ~hugs'n'love'n'other good stuff~

Sally said...

Let me tell you something. The ass-wads who think you are "selling out" are jealous because they are probably too illiterate to connect more than one coherent sentence together.

Backstabbing skanks!

Rebecca said...

I want to be Elle Woods, too, and seriously, you rock!

Gerbil said...

I've learned a lot about 'friends' since getting sick. Most certainly the ones who require little quotation marks around the word and are definitely NOT friends. And dude? Eff 'em. Seriously. As long as your kids and your dog think you poop roses, everything else is just gravy.

SJINCO said...

I love the digable planets.

I am really, really sorry that people are judging you and doing so anonymously - real friends would be supportive and love you no matter what. Shame on them. I've had people in my life who I thought were friends end up being just downright nasty and mean, and yes, it hurts. You have enough to worry about - don't let them get you down.

CHIN UP girl, there is sunshine right around the corner!