Wednesday, April 29, 2009

It's going to be a long day.

So I mentioned that I'm the blogger for the company I work for, right? It's awesome in a lot of ways (the writing ways) and not awesome in others (the fact that I'm not a web designer ways).

Last night I was hard at work attempting to design blogger templates. It? Did not go well. I don't take any of this personally, mind you. I'm really, really aware of my limitations. I just want to do better and get extraordinarily frustrated with myself when I don't.

I fell asleep at around midnight, woke up at my usual 3am, was awake until 5:50am, finally, FINALLY fell asleep and then woke up again at 6am.

Then? I went to the bathroom and cried. I do that when I'm exhausted.

I managed to get through the morning routine, managed to make lunches for the children, managed to safely deposit them in front of their school, and then made my way down the long, long stretch of interstate that constitutes my morning commute.

A song came on the radio and I found myself crying again:

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith




I AM CRYING OVER HANNAH MONTANA LYRICS.
Y'ALL BETTER CALL SOMEBODY.

14 comments:

Stephanie said...

LOL!!! Get some sleep!

Dawn~a~Bon said...

No, really, I think The Climb would be a really beautiful song . . . were it sung by someone able to sing!

I'm sorry you're exhausted!
:(

Unknown said...

Sorry to hear about your long night. I do blog design and can offer some help if you need it.

And I totally agree wtih Dawn on the Miley comment.

Sarcasta-Mom said...

LOL. Actually, I will admit right now that I actually like that song. It's just relevent. To bad it's being sung by the evil wench herself.

Hope today's a better day. THat's all we can ask for, right?

Angie said...

You always make me smile. . . always.

kristi said...

Ummm yeah, (ducking head in shame), I did the same thing a few weeks ago...when my boss was being her usual jerky self! Hannah Montana, WTF?? But the lyrics did help me!

Kimberly Vanderhorst said...

Yeah, I'm thinking sleep sounds like a good idea too. Let me know if you need help with the blogger template thing. I'm no pro but I know some tricks. Mwah!

Mikey said...

oh sh*t. that's not good! Yep, get some sleep. I do the same thing, I step in the shower and bawl. Then I'm fine.
Exhaustion sucks.

Priscilla said...

CALL 911! CALL 911! Jesus Mary and Joseph! Get help quick!

No, seriously. Pour yourself a cuppa and rest. You deserve it. And you'll figure things out better once your rested.

Although I'm liken Kirberly's offer. I could use some blogger help too. Retched program, I can't figure it out either.

Unknown said...

Here I was thinking....I really relate to that song.

Then I read your last two lines.

Yeah - I'm relating to a song written for thirteen year olds...woo-hoo!

Jill said...

I agree, it would be a good song if the artist (cough) was a good one.

KiKi said...

Web design + development: it's what I do for a living. If you get stuck, send me a private message that screams HELP! And I'll see if I can walk you thru... see, small world ;)

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Bwha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha! You do need sleep, hon! Quit crying over that Hannah Montanna (did I spell that right?) shit!

Cry over something meaningful.

Like ABBA. :)

Tricia said...

Well Hannah Montana makes me cry, too. Although, for entirely different reasons, as I am generally subjected to her for hours on end each day.