Monday, April 30, 2007

Downward spiral.

I stepped on my scale this morning, because it is Monday and I've been really doing my best to only weigh myself once a week.

Since January 24th, 2007, I've lost 19 pounds.

I was pleased with myself.

I pulled on my pants. I was pleased I could take off my pants without having to unbutton or unzip them (to go to the bathroom...because I drink 200 ounces of water a day and have to go a lot).

I got dressed and was pleased with the way I looked in the mirror. I know I have a long way to go, but still. I'm feeling better and looking better.

I went to the gas station this morning, got out of my car and was pumping my gas when a truck with a man who was probably thirty-five or so pulled up.

The man, again, who was probably THIRTY-FIVE YEARS OLD, yelled at me:


And then mooed at me. Like a cow.

I have no idea who that man was.
I have no idea why he felt it was his personal responsibility to inform me that I'm a fat-ass and make barnyard animal noises at me.

But I don't feel very pleased with myself anymore.

It's a good thing my self-esteem is already in the toilet. Because that? Might have really hurt my feelings.


my4kids said...

Congratulations on losing 19 pounds!
Pay no mind to the jerk who obviously has his own self esteem issues and feels the only way to feel better about himself is to be rude and disgusting to other people who are better then him anyway!

AnnieM said...

That would hurt anyones feelings! What a mean,mean person. Who does that? Someone who feels pretty bad about himself, I'd guess. Don't let it get you down, you know you are doing well and that really is the most important thing. Keep on keepin' on!

Alpha Dude said...

Congrats to you!
I'm kind of afraid of my scale.
As long as I can still fasten my britches, then I'm okay.

It is sad that a person feels the need to make someone else feel bad about themselves in order for him to feel better about himself.
Don't worry about him, though. They only let him out once a week, and soon he'll be back in his cage at the zoo. If you'd like to see him again, just stop by the monkey exhibit.


Rachel (Crazy-Is) said...

What a jackass!!!!! WTF makes anyone think that is ok? Seriously, what is wrong with people? Fuck him! You look great and you've lost 19 pounds. And, when you're all skinny and shit, that guy, yeah, he will still be stupid. Stupid is for life.

PinkCat said...

You should be so proud of yourself.

I hope that you had a few choice words for the jerkassedpisspantsdude.

You are beautiful!!

Take care xx

Tangent Woman said...

I feel your pain - the first time someone mooed at me - I stood there in shock trying my darndest to not cry - later after reliving the horrific moment over and over - of course I came up with the perfect response;
"Sorry, I don't understand your accent, maybe you should go back to speaking your own native jackass language"
Too late to do me any good - I am actually hoping someone moos at me again so I can try it out :)
Don't let an idiot dictate how you feel about yourself -
Keep up the good work!

Tilly said...

Congratulations and well done on the 19 pounds. I'm jealous. Don't let small minded eejits get you down. I bet he has a little willy.

Tonya said...

Congrats on the weight loss and you should feel very proud of yourself and a-holes like that are not even worth getting upset about.. there is no excuse for ignorance!! I think you are doing a fantastic job :)

Unknown said...

Okay, That's it! I'm coming to move you to a place where people wouldn't dare do that to you because they know my husband would give them a ticket. The house next door is for sale - won't you be MY neighbor?

Lizarita said...

What.the.fuck? I will never understand people like that. People who think that calling fat people is a HUGE REVALATION or something? HELLO!? WE KNOW WE"RE FAT!
And my usual retort? "I won't always be fat, but you will ALWAYS be ugly."
Juvenile, I know...but it makes me feel better.
And dude! 19 pounds is KICK ASS!!!

Denise said...

Everytime I make the mistake of getting on the scale, It scremas at me. "GET OFF, I CANT BREATHE!!

HeatherAnn Fragglehead said...

You do realize that man is an awful waste of flesh, right? Ugh. Also, what the hell? Dude, how old are you???

I'm proud that you managed to remain the adult in the situation, and I'm even more proud that you've lost as much weight as you have. That is such a huge accomplishment!

Jocelyn said...

That man is a very small, sad person. If he's acting that way, something in him is badly broken. I know; I rode the bus in high school with that man, except he was named Tom Barker and Jason Brockel..and they mooed at me and my sister all the way home one day, calling us cows when they stopped to take a breath. When we got off the bus, my brother greeted my sister with the words "Hey, lardass."

Men need to get over their bad selves. But the damage they do; well, obviously, we never get over it, on some level.

But don't let the jerk derail you. 19 pounds is amazing. You are amazing. Keep walking. And, one step at a time, one denied sweet-thing at a time, you'll get up to 20 pounds lost. Then 25.

Jhianna said...

Congratulations on losing 19 pounds!

And add me to the list of people who think you are amazing and he's a waste of oxygen.

Somebody needs to beat him with the clue stick.

Anonymous said...

19 pounds is awesome!! Excellent!!

Pfft to the moron and his name calling. He was probably down and out because he realized he's still single due to a) being an immature moron and b) his most recent girlfriend told him that not only is he an immature moron, he has a small tally wacker!!

Anonymous said...

Wow, I had no idea they let really stupid seven year old boys who look like 35 year old men drive nowadays. Is that a Tennessee thing?

Because really, why a 35 year old man would decide to be as stupid as the rudest 7 year-old boy leads me to believe that he must live a pretty pathetic life. And drink way too much Budweiser while high fiving himself.

You freaking rock. You have no reasons to have your morale in the toilet. That man's head, however, it does belong in the toilet.

Anonymous said...

What the hell? Who could be that mean? Losing weight has got to be one of the hardest things to do. Good for you! Keep going!

Kimberly Vanderhorst said...

Nothing like a huge burst of righteouss indignation on the part of your friends to let you know how loved you are.

There aren't many people on this planet who wouldn't be insanely hurt by that. How could it not make you feel like crap unless you were super enlightened and knew just how little that stuff mattered?

If you ever get a chance, seek out the Max Lucado (sp?) book "You Are Special". It's a kids book, but it does the trick for me.

They say it's horrible to kick someone when they're already down, but I think it's worse to do it when they're up. Because they don't expect it...they aren't prepared, and the drop down is such a huge contrast from where they were.

You absolutely rock for having lost that much weight. And just because of you awesome example, I won't have that ginormous banana chocolate chip muffin I was going to have even though I'm not hungry.

frannie said...

what a horrible waste of sperm!

*HE* is the barnyard animal- not you.

and I am very, very proud of you!!!

Dawn~a~Bon said...

I hate that man, a whole lot.

And congrats on the 19 pounds!

Kelly said...

I'm sure his mother would be so proud.

Seriously? Who DOES that kind of crap? Moron.

I hope you flipped him off.

Ashley said...

What a fucktard! If it was me I probably would have ran over him.

Congrats on the 19 pounds!!! You go girl!

Anonymous said...

19 lbs!!! Yay! We all know how hard it is to lose that crap! You keep it up, you are doing amazing.

Now, on to that pin-dick you encountered this morning... hmmm... you probably should have taken advantage of your incredibly loose pants and mooned him, and then excused yourself saying you thought he was saying "moon" not mooo. Personally, I wouldn't wish the vision of MY lily-white ass on anyone... I guess that's why it would have been funny to me.

But of course I also would have just gotten in my car and had that thought 2 miles away, which wouldn't have mattered... I wouldn't have done it anyway... but it's fun to dream.

Kelly said...

Well first of all...19 pounds! That is AWESOME!! You should Definitely be proud of yourself!! As for the moron at the gas station..he probably had his own issues and needed to make himself feel better which is why he felt the need to let his presence be known...I know its hard not to take it personal but really you shouldn't. I too have weight issues and have been attempting to shed the pounds too at first, I was all self conscious about what people thought..but really who cares?? I'm so not at my ideal weight but I'm content with it and knowing I'm still working on getting rid of more makes me happy! Don't let that idiot ruin you being proud of yourself. Losing weight is HARD and any amount lost should be celebrated!!


Hmm not sure this made sense...but I hope it did!

SJINCO said...

Whoa. WHOA! Because I'm sure it's been stated what an jerk that man was, I don't even want to waste my words on him. But what an asshole. Makes me disgusted and ashamed that people like that exist in this world. He had no right, NO RIGHT.

You on the other hand are doing excellent, 19 pounds is great!

I'm so sorry that this man felt the need to take out his incompetence on YOU, becuase YOU are an awesome person.

EE said...

19 lbs...YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!

What an ass...who says things like that?????

alissa said...

I have a full hate-on for this jackass. He should die and slow & painful death for being such an insensitive turd.


Go back to feeling great about yourself.

dennis said...

oh, lord! The man runs around with his head up his ass all day and feels the need to pull it out at a gas station??

I say forget him and luv your new self! (or offer to let your husband love your new self..?)

M said...

I'm way late in the game but know I Love you and I'm so proud of your weight loss and I will so hunt down that moron and cut him. GRRRRRRRRRRR everyone else covered the logical things I had to say.

You, my friend, do rock. No matter what morons do. xoxoxo

Creamy Silver said...

Forgive my off-topic-ness,

How is your sister?

Amy W said...

What in the hell and where in the heck is this gas station?

19 pounds since January? COMMENDABLE. Keep up the good work.

Julie said...

Don't worry - he probably has a really tiny penis!

Congratulations on loosing 19 pounds - that's awesome!

Shanilie said...

Gurrr. That would have made me MAD! Some people are soooo rude. I can't believe it. It is difficult not to let peoples comments get to us, if there was a way not to then I still need to figure it out how. You're not alone! Over 65% of north americans are over weight so we are not alone. Congratulations on losing 19lbs! That is amazing. You should feel good about yourself and what you have accomplished. I am still trying to lose the 50+ lbs I put on when I was pregnant for Jacob....and that was over 2+ years ago. lol and I think I have gained more than that since then too. :S

P.S. You should get a package of Crisco lard. They are a pound each. Hold that and you will see how difficult it is just to loose one of those!

Anonymous said...

Are you really serious? Oh my goodness!

Anonymous said...

Well. The nerve. Too bad you didn't have a handful of that 19 pounds of fat to throw at his truck. Maybe even break his window and make him crash into a pole or something. Not to kill him. Just to remind him what a complete idiot he is.

You'd have to be made of steal for something like that not to hurt your feelings. But you pick yourself back up and keep on doing what you're doing. Because damn! 19 pounds rocks!!

Bethany said...


Nineteen pounds ROCKS! You are doing great.

Mel said...

You go girl! You should be very proud of all you accomplished. Obviously the dude did not have any class and I am sure he was probably oh so attractive himself. Keep up the great work...I am right there with you on the quest to lose.

Adventures in Baby Fat said...

Stupid, ignorant, low-life, truck-drivin', teeny-peckered, piece of ugly, scum-sucking, foul-mouthed, trashy swine just taking up space and oxygen.

You should have kicked him in his shriveled berries and called him Shirley.

CPA Mom said...

I echo all the above. 19 lbs KICKS ASS.

I can't even begin to do any better than Adventures in Baby Fat at describing the tool in the pickup. It's hard to do but try to pay him no mind. You are a true beauty, inside and out. And he has the smallest dick on the planet. hummmm maybe it was my ex

Girl from Pennsylvania said...

Oh, I had one of those moments before. About 5 years ago some guy drove down the rode I was walking along and honk and yelled. Being the polite girl that I am I flipped him the bird. So he yelled back f*^$ you fat bitch. It was five years ago and I still remember it. It made me cry, inspired me for like two days to lose some weight. It still hurts me even though I never knew this person and never will see them again. I guess what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Maybe the ass wipe should see me now at 127lbs. I showed him...