So things right now? Not great.
Okay, maybe that's not fair. Work is not great. Work, in fact, both sucks and blows.
My marriage is good, my children are healthy, and I'm luckier than most. But works sucks, and it makes it hard to see the good things.
Today was overall okay with the exception of half an hour with an auditor who not only humorless but a complete dick. But overall, I'm sad. I'm bummed. I need to get out of the situation I'm in. I'm working on it, but I'm not there yet.
So what do I do when it gets bad?
I take a walk.
I really do love to walk, despite my complaining about the 1/2 mile I have to trek twice daily to get to my car. I like being outside and I like how I feel when I am done, even if my butt tingles while I walk. I especially like to walk with my children, because it gives us precious time that we don't necessarily get while we are home, to hash things out.
Tonight's walk topics included:
1) Why the asphalt plant really does smell like ass.
2) The correct spelling of asphalt.
3) The correct pronunciation of asphalt. Which, by the way, is not Ass Fall, as Girl Child would like you to believe.
4) Judy Blume and why her books were banned.
5) Hillary Clinton.
6) Adam and Eve and why they sinned.
7) Survival skills if you see a bear.
I know all of that is pretty random, with the exception of the series of questions about asphalt. But that's really what is wonderful about all of it. The randomness. How they feel they can ask me anything and how we can talk about anything, anytime. How as it got darker and darker outside they drew closer and closer to me.
I love our walks in that special hour between daylight and darkness.
I love being their mom.